Non romantic holding of the hands

Recently I went out with some new friends. The bar is not important. What is important was when I arrived, one of the girls was really excited that I came out and gave me a big hug. Okay, fine. I didn't realize we were that good of friends but I'll take it.

Let me just pause to say that I am a very touchy-feely person.. in the right situation. Especially with a significant other I like to hold hands, cuddle, whatever. I really do enjoy the small physical contact with someone I care about. And when it comes to friends, I will give my good friends big hugs and maybe a kiss on the cheek if I'm drunk. But that's kind of it. Ok, back to the story...

So our little group decided to move to a booth across the room, at which point said girl who gave me a big hug grabbed my hand and led me, and others, over to the booth.

So. Awkward.

I have never ever been a "hold hands with your girl friend's" type of girl. It makes me feel all weird and I have to resist my immediate reaction to yank my hand away. I truly don't understand it. I love my friends, they know I love them. I have no desire to hold hands with them. If anyone has some insight on what the appeal to holding your best friend's hand is.. I would love to know. Because it's one of the many things that my own gender participates in and yet, I cannot relate to in any way.

Let me also point out that I have tried. I have tried to be that girl who goes along with it, but it's truly an uncomfortable situation for me. It makes me very squeamish and, even with my solid efforts, I have never succeeded in holding a friends hand for more than maybe a minute or so.

If you wanted to get into the shrinky stuff, you could say that this is a telling sign of greater reasons for why I have never had that many close girl friends. I tend to get along better with guys... but that's a whole other story.


In other news, it is almost the end of another year. 2010 has come and gone. For me, it's been a wild ride. A lot has happened, and not happened. I have met a lot of new and wonderful people just as some friends have fallen to the way side. It was, in the end, a good year. I have no feelings regarding 2011 but if it goes anything like 2010 (maybe just a teeny bit better) then I'll have nothing to complain about.

A few things to look forward to in 2011:
- Officially entering my mid-twenties
- (Starting out) single and ready to mingle
- A really fun gig in Jan
- My brother FINALLY coming to visit me in LA (it only took 4 years!)
- Another year to be awesome with my friends and family

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!